I am not a mechanism, an assembly of various sections.
And it is not because the mechanism is working wrongly, that I am ill.
I am ill because of wounds to the soul, to the deep emotional self -
and the wounds to the soul take a long, long time,
only time can help
and patience, and a certain difficult repentance
long difficult repentance...
- D.H. Lawrence
The speaker was telling the audience that men are "hard-wired" for this or that. Exsqueeze me? Hard-wired? I wanted to scream my best D.H. Lawrence: I AM NOT A MECHANISM! I AM NOT A MECHANISM! But I did not for those gathered around me were hanging by a wire on his every word. The longer I listened the more despondent I grew because yet another major voice was viewing men in a mechanistic way and then prescribing various things that would repair the wrongly working mechanism. Now the speaker was going to great lengths to assure us that he didn't want to fix us, but our words betray us, do they not?
And lest you think it specific to men, I heard a woman say that about herself just the other day: Well, I know I'm hard-wired for... We often talk of our personal operating systems and days when we're not hitting all cylinders and seasons where I need to unplug or recharge my batteries...I could go on, but I won't. I've even heard it said of late that the church needs to reboot. Dear lord. We've swallowed this not-so-healthy fruit and taken it to heart and out of the heart proceedeth a view of ourselves that couldn't be more fallen: we are mechanisms or at least mechanistic.
No, my friends. We are souls. And if we are ill, and I believe we are, then I agree with Lawrence; it is because of wounds...to the deep emotional self. And therein lies one of the struggles for us; we'd rather not look there. The deeps have a tendency to be dark and moist and scary.
The other struggle is this:
only time can help
and patience, and a certain difficult repentance...
Who has time anymore? We're not patient. And that certain long difficult repentance stuff? Goodhellamighty, we're just not hard-wired for that. Now you might think it different in groups of people who go on and on about how much they love Jesus, but for the most part, when the music fades, it's not. As Jim Harrison has said, "We like to count spiritual coup and then get on with it."